Mine.

A little Billie Holiday, Janis Joplin and Bob Marley.

I'm single, I'm one, I'm alone. Most of you would say focus on yourself, learn to love yourself. Shut the fuck up, to me life has no meaning without having to show someone you care about them. I love to be loved, I love to love.I know I've had so many people that care about me, i'm addicted to affection. I crave it more than you. I am in the position where i have no one to hold me asleep. My bed is so cold. Distant memories of lost loves.

I really just want someone to touch, someone soft and reassuring.

I suck. I know, but I have a huge heart. I'll try and make up for my faults.

Anyone going to Cali soon, want to take me with? I have to make it there and soon. Or else I may lose something wonderful. You never know what you have untill its gone. Its not quite gone and I dont want to miss it.

I'm crazy, I'm so fucking crazy. Crazy is fun tho.

You better be prepaired.

Come the fuck on, any of you should know that I spend most of my time being sick with something. Now its 3 fucking styes in one eye. GOD DAMNIT ONE EYE, I look like the fucking sloth off of ice age, you know the one with a lisp.

God my phone back, people call me 253-350-8698 no excuses niggas.

Oh jeez.

So I am currently L&I'd to my house. I slipped at work and now my ankle has been fucked for 4 days now. Its ok though, gives me time to focus on school head on. Finnaly someone took me out of my math class, i'm now in consumer math ( very easy ). I still havent gotten my car, I havent gotten my cell phone back. Hey I get paid on 21st though. Then I can get my phone and I shall be able to call everyone again. I know my life doesnt intrest you very much, its all good, I dont care about yours... Kidding...

You know that line inbetween your life being being on the positive side or on the negative side. My definately on the negative, through it all I do know it gets better with time and determination.

First Semester :

CWP - Markham
College Bound English - Tarry
Algebra 1 - Sparks

These are my only classes all year long. Booya!

4,5,6 period are all work release...

HA HA I only go to school for three periods mofos. I am working 40 hour weeks though.

I am now a full-time employee at the McDonalds in Orting. Its great shit. I like working there, it is so fast paced.

I get my 92' Eclipse next week. I lost my Chocolate phone in the woods. Fucking niggers.

Other than that all is alright I am very sane, I'm not allowed to call myself crazy anymore.

I am Coda Motherpimpfucking Woods and yes you are my bitch, You
are all my bitches, so deal, and put my money in my hand.

My new cell phone for good this time. 253-350-8698

Call me anytime if you have Verizon. If you dont all of my incoming calls are free, so call me.

So I got punched in the face yesterday... Big huge fat lip. I took it like a man.

I'd put money on the fact that most of you may think i'm a whimpy bitch for not fighting back. Honestly I couldnt bring myself to. Afterwards there were a lot of things I could have done to kick the fat bitches ass, but honestly I'd rather have peace in my heart and a fat lip than fight.

Peace not war.

Nothing to do, Nowhere to go...

I need crack, I dont want to sleep anymore, I miss so much.

Take me swimming tommorow.

So back to zero. This is time it doesnt hurt, and I dont cry. This is who I needed to be, me. Theres so much I want to do. I cant wait to have fun, and waste my time. No one else to worry about other than myself. I'm on my own this time.

Dancing free again...

Alright, i'm getting sick and fucking tired of being sick and tired. I've been sick for the last 3 months in a row. Maybe my immune system has failed me.

As great as life has improved it still has its fucking downside. I guess I have to deal.

I'm going to go take an epson salt bath, it might make me feel better.

Love you all. 5 more days untill my ass is out of school, I'm getting a job so then I will beable to see all my peeps.

10. You are my best friend.
I love you, Your friendship is what captured me.

9. My sense of security I feel by being with you.
I love you, I trust you, You can always trust me.

8. You make me feel beautiful and loved.
I love you, you are a beautiful soul.

7. All the great times we have shared together.
I love you for breaking the silence.

6. When I am with you I never feel alone.
I love you, I'm here or there for you always.

5. The sense of completeness I feel with you.
I love you, you complete me.

4. With your support I feel like I can face or achieve anything.
I love you for being a positive influence.

3. I can be myself around you.
I love who you are when we're alone.

2. You make me smile.
I love it when you smile.

1. You love me for who I am.
I love you for who you are.

Ughhh you guys. I'm tired of life. I really need to get away.

I want to head south that would be nice. Very Very nice.

Someone put me to bed for a week straight.

I love you all.

Good grades are a plus.

I'm back.

I couldnt stay gone for long.

Unfortunately the only news I have to report is that I am hurting more in my life now than I have ever before.

Someone please take me in your arms and make it all go away.

It hurts.

Please help me.

I'm begging.

Once upon a time...

The whispers of your heart once lit my sky
Your tales of adventure captured me so,
So soon the tales wear away
Brushing my face with delicate hands
Was enough to live for
Wishing you to look at me the same
The gaze with that universal sparkle
My life restarted when combined with yours
When you hurt I hurt, When you smile I smile
I dont think you understand the hidden power in your word
Takes my hand and helps me through the dark
Wheres the missing peice?
Not so much missing, just cant be fulursfilled
The spinning as I lay my head down to sleep
Has faded to a content choma
I would scream at the top of my lungs
just to get you to understand
my burning passion to be just yours
How many heavens, How much hell
will it take to show you how I truly feel.
Once upon a time you told me you loved me,
I'm the luckiest girl because you still do.
Its true is real, its all you my love.
Once upon time, untill I found you.

Plans still the same.

Minus the Jeff part.

No sex or "fooling around" for a while. I'm glad. I love him.

Failed at quitting smoking. I know I can do it though.

Today is a good day.

I miss you Kevin. I hope you are sane.

Brit love you like always.


FRIDAY THE 31st ADAM SINS PARTY. BE THERE OR BE CIRCLE. *My birthday rave* Always gotta have one.

I'm sorry I didnt attend yours Nicole. I love you.

I've lost another close friend of mine.

Same story, Same age, Only a year apart.

Bad things come to me in three.

For those of you who even care to read this know that I love you and I hope you are safe.

I'm tired of losing my best friends.

Please think responsibly and if you need to talk call me 360 893 6552

Once and always again I love you.

At the end of this school year I will be:

-Moving to an apartment in Renton.
-Withdrawing from Orting High School.
-Enrolling at an Alternitive High School.
-Enrolling in Running Start at Highline Community College.
-Getting a job part time.
-Acting.
-Living with the one man I love and our best friend Jeff.
-Smoking a lot of pot.

I have half a year left in this godforsaken hell. I cant wait till its over.

I hit my head twice today really hard, and almost hit someone. I'm so fucking tired.

Love is tasty.

Life is well.

I love you all.

My new year is welcome, with a promising future, more responsibilty, Our love, school. No more tabacco. No looking back.

Wandering Soul

Unlistened recording of my years, past one, evolved.
Chosen state, Altered Mind, both they balance oh so well.
My past forgotten, My future so much more.
Waiting for him, the one to show.
Sitting and waiting for the eve of night,
I miss the life, the lively and the love.
Now is my time to show what i've learned.
My stage, My prescence, Everything else along.
I've dragged this body through heaven and hell
Still it presses on too much.
Feed my mind with dayly engages,
My heart with only him.
Most truelly do boast
But I jest not
My time in this life
Definately and without a doubt
Will be brought forward
My mind my love my heart/soul/spirit
Is just for you, but the rest of my efforts
Cannot resort to my feelings for him.
Unless you decide to share.
Then once again will I be with you.