Mine.

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 10:54:17 GMT

A little Billie Holiday, Janis Joplin and Bob Marley.

I'm single, I'm one, I'm alone. Most of you would say focus on yourself, learn to love yourself. Shut the fuck up, to me life has no meaning without having to show someone you care about them. I love to be loved, I love to love.I know I've had so many people that care about me, i'm addicted to affection. I crave it more than you. I am in the position where i have no one to hold me asleep. My bed is so cold. Distant memories of lost loves.

I really just want someone to touch, someone soft and reassuring.

I suck. I know, but I have a huge heart. I'll try and make up for my faults.

Anyone going to Cali soon, want to take me with? I have to make it there and soon. Or else I may lose something wonderful. You never know what you have untill its gone. Its not quite gone and I dont want to miss it.

I'm crazy, I'm so fucking crazy. Crazy is fun tho.

You better be prepaired.

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 05:25:56 GMT

Come the fuck on, any of you should know that I spend most of my time being sick with something. Now its 3 fucking styes in one eye. GOD DAMNIT ONE EYE, I look like the fucking sloth off of ice age, you know the one with a lisp.

God my phone back, people call me 253-350-8698 no excuses niggas.

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 03:43:56 GMT

Oh jeez.

So I am currently L&I'd to my house. I slipped at work and now my ankle has been fucked for 4 days now. Its ok though, gives me time to focus on school head on. Finnaly someone took me out of my math class, i'm now in consumer math ( very easy ). I still havent gotten my car, I havent gotten my cell phone back. Hey I get paid on 21st though. Then I can get my phone and I shall be able to call everyone again. I know my life doesnt intrest you very much, its all good, I dont care about yours... Kidding...

You know that line inbetween your life being being on the positive side or on the negative side. My definately on the negative, through it all I do know it gets better with time and determination.

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 06:47:14 GMT

First Semester :

CWP - Markham
College Bound English - Tarry
Algebra 1 - Sparks

These are my only classes all year long. Booya!

4,5,6 period are all work release...

HA HA I only go to school for three periods mofos. I am working 40 hour weeks though.

I am now a full-time employee at the McDonalds in Orting. Its great shit. I like working there, it is so fast paced.

I get my 92' Eclipse next week. I lost my Chocolate phone in the woods. Fucking niggers.

Other than that all is alright I am very sane, I'm not allowed to call myself crazy anymore.

I am Coda Motherpimpfucking Woods and yes you are my bitch, You
are all my bitches, so deal, and put my money in my hand.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 02:58:43 GMT

My new cell phone for good this time. 253-350-8698

Call me anytime if you have Verizon. If you dont all of my incoming calls are free, so call me.

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 21:04:51 GMT

So I got punched in the face yesterday... Big huge fat lip. I took it like a man.

I'd put money on the fact that most of you may think i'm a whimpy bitch for not fighting back. Honestly I couldnt bring myself to. Afterwards there were a lot of things I could have done to kick the fat bitches ass, but honestly I'd rather have peace in my heart and a fat lip than fight.

Peace not war.

Ganja for life...

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 04:56:33 GMT

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 04:52:49 GMT

Nothing to do, Nowhere to go...

I need crack, I dont want to sleep anymore, I miss so much.

Take me swimming tommorow.

Anyone live in Olympia?

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 00:31:48 GMT

So back to zero. This is time it doesnt hurt, and I dont cry. This is who I needed to be, me. Theres so much I want to do. I cant wait to have fun, and waste my time. No one else to worry about other than myself. I'm on my own this time.

Dancing free again...

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 15:08:29 GMT

Alright, i'm getting sick and fucking tired of being sick and tired. I've been sick for the last 3 months in a row. Maybe my immune system has failed me.

As great as life has improved it still has its fucking downside. I guess I have to deal.

I'm going to go take an epson salt bath, it might make me feel better.

Love you all. 5 more days untill my ass is out of school, I'm getting a job so then I will beable to see all my peeps.

Wed, 17 May 2006 07:08:04 GMT

10. You are my best friend.
I love you, Your friendship is what captured me.

9. My sense of security I feel by being with you.
I love you, I trust you, You can always trust me.

8. You make me feel beautiful and loved.
I love you, you are a beautiful soul.

7. All the great times we have shared together.
I love you for breaking the silence.

6. When I am with you I never feel alone.
I love you, I'm here or there for you always.

5. The sense of completeness I feel with you.
I love you, you complete me.

4. With your support I feel like I can face or achieve anything.
I love you for being a positive influence.

3. I can be myself around you.
I love who you are when we're alone.

2. You make me smile.
I love it when you smile.

1. You love me for who I am.
I love you for who you are.

Mon, 01 May 2006 01:27:42 GMT

Ughhh you guys. I'm tired of life. I really need to get away.

I want to head south that would be nice. Very Very nice.

Someone put me to bed for a week straight.

I love you all.

Good grades are a plus.

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 04:24:50 GMT

I'm back.

I couldnt stay gone for long.

Unfortunately the only news I have to report is that I am hurting more in my life now than I have ever before.

Someone please take me in your arms and make it all go away.

It hurts.

Please help me.

I'm begging.

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 01:45:15 GMT

Once upon a time...

The whispers of your heart once lit my sky
Your tales of adventure captured me so,
So soon the tales wear away
Brushing my face with delicate hands
Was enough to live for
Wishing you to look at me the same
The gaze with that universal sparkle
My life restarted when combined with yours
When you hurt I hurt, When you smile I smile
I dont think you understand the hidden power in your word
Takes my hand and helps me through the dark
Wheres the missing peice?
Not so much missing, just cant be fulursfilled
The spinning as I lay my head down to sleep
Has faded to a content choma
I would scream at the top of my lungs
just to get you to understand
my burning passion to be just yours
How many heavens, How much hell
will it take to show you how I truly feel.
Once upon a time you told me you loved me,
I'm the luckiest girl because you still do.
Its true is real, its all you my love.
Once upon time, untill I found you.

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 03:30:58 GMT

Plans still the same.

Minus the Jeff part.

No sex or "fooling around" for a while. I'm glad. I love him.

Failed at quitting smoking. I know I can do it though.

Today is a good day.

I miss you Kevin. I hope you are sane.

Brit love you like always.

FRIDAY THE 31st ADAM SINS PARTY. BE THERE OR BE CIRCLE. *My birthday rave* Always gotta have one.

I'm sorry I didnt attend yours Nicole. I love you.

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 06:45:49 GMT

I've lost another close friend of mine.

Same story, Same age, Only a year apart.

Bad things come to me in three.

For those of you who even care to read this know that I love you and I hope you are safe.

I'm tired of losing my best friends.

Please think responsibly and if you need to talk call me 360 893 6552

Once and always again I love you.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 04:42:28 GMT

At the end of this school year I will be:

-Moving to an apartment in Renton.
-Withdrawing from Orting High School.
-Enrolling at an Alternitive High School.
-Enrolling in Running Start at Highline Community College.
-Getting a job part time.
-Acting.
-Living with the one man I love and our best friend Jeff.
-Smoking a lot of pot.

I have half a year left in this godforsaken hell. I cant wait till its over.

I hit my head twice today really hard, and almost hit someone. I'm so fucking tired.

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 04:54:01 GMT

Love is tasty.

Life is well.

I love you all.

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 07:18:54 GMT

My new year is welcome, with a promising future, more responsibilty, Our love, school. No more tabacco. No looking back.

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 23:13:25 GMT

Wandering Soul

Unlistened recording of my years, past one, evolved.
Chosen state, Altered Mind, both they balance oh so well.
My past forgotten, My future so much more.
Waiting for him, the one to show.
Sitting and waiting for the eve of night,
I miss the life, the lively and the love.
Now is my time to show what i've learned.
My stage, My prescence, Everything else along.
I've dragged this body through heaven and hell
Still it presses on too much.
Feed my mind with dayly engages,
My heart with only him.
Most truelly do boast
But I jest not
My time in this life
Definately and without a doubt
Will be brought forward
My mind my love my heart/soul/spirit
Is just for you, but the rest of my efforts
Cannot resort to my feelings for him.
Unless you decide to share.
Then once again will I be with you.

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 04:45:36 GMT

Tet

When we last met,
We parted, never spoke goodbye
In this life death does not lie

Bunnie.
White, Innocent
Hopping, Nibbling, Sleeping
Nose, Fur, Foot,Tail
Chewing, Loving, Jumping
Soft, Quit
Evil

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 01:21:46 GMT

So I got stoned and ate Turkey Dinner.

End of Story.

Someone called me to day to wish me a Happy Thanksgiving, Someone I didnt think would. I've had a great Indian Slaughter Day.

Mmm Cranberry Sauce.

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 00:05:31 GMT

I have a new fav song. Gab & Dresd- Tracking Treasure Down

My hair is a vivid blue with brighter blue highlights.

I'm dropping my accounting class.

I have almost all A's in my other classes.

I'm single.

I miss friends.

I miss dancing.

I need a cuddle buddy. Anyone?

.coda.

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 03:42:54 GMT

10 Firsts
first boyfriend/girlfriend: Seth. A long time ago.
first screen name: xtearsonparadex
first kiss: I dont remember
first piercings: When I was two, ears. When I just turned 16, navel.
first crush: Chris
first music: Meatloaf, Eagles.
first stuffed animal: A bear named Shaggy.
first school: Dont remember

9 lasts:
last cigarette: Now
last thing you bought: Taquitos
last movie saw: Saw II , jarhead, domino
last phone call: Grandma in louisiana about going down there.
last cd played: Mix cd I made today with new music
last Plans: Whiteout didnt go
last bubble bath: this morning
last time you cried: I dont remember
last date: Before october

8 have you evers:
have you ever dated one of your best friends: yes
have you ever skinny dipped: ys
have you ever been on tv: Yes,volcano evacuation route interview
have you ever fallen in love: Yes
have you ever lost someone you loved: yes
Have you ever been depressed?: Not really anymore.
have you ever woken up and not known where you were: Yes Once

7 places you've been to:
1. I've been to.....
2. School
3. Car
4. Seattle
5. Tacoma
6. Freaknight
7. Steilacoom

6 things you've done today:
1. smoked pot
2. took a bath
3. smoked a ciggerete
4. smoked more pot
5. downloaded music
6. smoked more pot

5 favorite things in NO order:
1. Music
2. Pot
3. Kevin
4. sleep
5. dancing

who REALLY likes brown boxes and string? come on vontrapps.

4 people you can tell [almost] anything to:
1. Kevin
2. Joe
3. My mom
4. Mellisa

3 Wishes-
1. Find true love
2. go to college
3. dance professionally

2 Things you want to do before you die
1. Live till I'm very old.
2. Be happy with my life and regret nothing at the end of it.

hehe

1 person that you'd do anything for

You.

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 02:59:06 GMT

Kevin.
I am so completely sorry for missing you last night. I had no way of getting in touch with you. A girl at Freaknight took me aside and told me that you were switching hotels and she said she would find me later to let me know exactly where you were. She never found me again.

Then after the party my group I was with realized that we left the keys in the Qwest Center and they wouldnt let us back in to find them. So we had to wait for a tow truck. 3 came and one charged us 50 dollars to get into the car. We left seattle about six. We were all very cold and very tired.

I woke up crying this morning because after all the shit I went through last night, I just want to cuddle up with you and cry. I relly wanted you to rock me to sleep. I miss my best friend. I miss the closet we used to cuddle in, I miss the Seattle streets we used to walk. I miss the plans we used to have.

My next big plans, are just to see you. That is my goal. I want to spend more than a couple minutes or hours together. I missed the person and beautiful spirit you are and have become.

I miss kevy hugs.

I love you my best and closest friend. You were there for me all the time. I wish I was there for you now and everyday to come.

.coda.